The power of decision is my own.

6-1-2026

“The power of decision is my own. This day I will accept myself as what my Father’s will created me to be.” [CE W-152.12:2-3]

As I reflected on this thought today, this question arose: Do I defend my choice of being separated from God? Muscle testing gave back a strong response of ‘Yes!’. All parts of me know this to be true. I could go into what defenses my ego led mind might create of how I benefit from being separate from God, but instead I choose to reflect on what my life is like by choosing separation from Love.

I feel a sense of arrogance rising that wants to defend the choice I made once upon a time that today finds me in this world. Arrogance is the tool I’ve taken up to avoid shame. Big shame is a potential impact I could feel if I were to acknowledge that I chose to separate from Love. (I feel this shame potential in my gut.)

And, as I consider my relationships, I see a pattern of defending my decision by keeping my loved ones at arms length, putting limits on love by my choosing how little or much I show. I recognize  that I rely on obligations to hold my relationships together, not Love. Do I do the same with God?

God Loves me, this I know. I take in the good feelings that Love offers my body as it flows to me. I fear it extending out, why?

Am I so settled and comfortable in my choice of separation that I fear the change that connection could bring? [Yes!]

Am I just defending my comfort? [Yes!]

Is it worth it? [No.]

Why do I remain this way? … to avoid shame. [Yes.]

I am most afraid of what I do to myself (by choosing to take on shame). I recall it being torture, so I don’t want to go there.

Oh, I just remembered that I don’t have to do this alone. Help is ready to support me, I just have to ask. (My heart lifts in gratitude.)

I am truly never alone and yet shame can only exist in the separated vacuum of my own mind. Shame cannot be real because shame only exists in my mind and my mind is connected to God’s. Therefore, I am fearing an illusion of my own making — childhood monsters that frightened me then and still influence my choices today.

I am free. I am still as God created me.

“To recognize God’s Son implies as well that all self-concepts have been laid aside, and recognized as false. Their arrogance has been perceived, and in humility the radiance of God’s Son, his gentleness, his perfect sinlessness, his Father’s love, his right to Heaven and release from hell are joyously accepted as our own.” [CE W-152.11:1-2]

I release the fear of shame.

[ ] Denotes responses from HS.

6-1-2024

“And in humility the radiance of God’s Son, his gentleness, his perfect sinlessness, his Father’s Love, his right to Heaven and release from hell, are joyously accepted as our own.”

Today I accept myself as how God’s will created me to be.

I am touched by the references to humility in this lesson but am wondering how it fits into the process of right decision making.

“Truth is true.”

This is where I am letting go – truth will reveal itself. I don’t need to figure it out or defend it. This is where humility comes in.

At retreat this week, I was shown time and time again that I don’t need to plan for anything, only to be open and listen for what You would have me do next.

I stand in humility, and serenity, to be the Self You placed in this life. This is my decision.

6-1-2023

“As God created you, you must remain unchangeable, with transitory states by definition false.”

I decide.

I just read an article (on Mercola.com) that presented a theory on why some people can think for themselves and not follow the herd. The article tries to define what traits are with people that today we say are ‘awake’. The author said that common traits in ‘woke’ people are: not needing outside proof, use of intuition and critical thinking, not self-promoting, spiritual, and moral. He used the term ‘fulcrum’ to express the point that supports the system of their inner morality.

To relate this back to the lesson – I see it as the inner morality they base their decisions on. This, I believe, the lesson is trying to get us to grasp, to solidify our fulcrum.

God is Love and we are Love.

This is the hard truth that is to be the fulcrum of all our decision making so that our system balance on this.

Let it be that when we wobble that our center remains Love. _/\_

6-1-2022

I am feeling distracted today. What Hollie wrote is a difficult lesson … difficult to keep my attention to.

I create my world. I make decisions based on little facts, poor perception, and not trusting in the Truth.

I am the light, I am the Love, I am the Truth, I am Christ, I am.

As son of man, I am in the jungle, but the pure loving-kindness-wisdom-power-light remains in my being. I can choose to have my focus-attention-consciousness be from that place of being.

Loving God, I am here, asking for my choices to be from my true Self.

Amen