By Tricia Bates Smith, 10-22-2024
Great Love, why? I have so many questions. They build up in my throat, unasked.
Where am I going? Why can’t I know what You plan for me -- expect from me. It is not for me to know’, is what I tell myself.
UUUghhh! I don’t like this! It causes me to judge and question everything I do, every thought and reaction I have. I have the need to weigh my actions against some measure of good, but how do I do this if there is no scale?
Great Love, what is your plan for me? I need to be prepared. Do you expect me to go naked?! I sense … ‘yes’.
Eyes are beginning to see … What I think of as waiting, containing, resisting … You just want me to just ‘let go’.
My heart sends a light up to break up the blockage in my throat. A smile results. Your blessing is received.
Great Love, I have returned to your flow, filled with gratitude. My eyes had closed to the holy journey I have been placed within. I am here for the experience … please keep reminding me.
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This psalm was written as a homework assignment for a seminary elective about the Psalms. It has been a balm for some stress due to beginning year two of OSLI seminary program.