By Tricia Bates Smith, 10-22-2024

Great Love, why? 
I have so many questions.
They build up in my throat, unasked.

Where am I going? 
Why can’t I know what You plan for me -- expect from me? 
'It is not for me to know’, is what I tell myself.

UUUghhh! I don’t like this! 
It causes me to judge and question everything I do, every thought and reaction I have. 
I have the need to weigh my actions against some measure of good, but how do I do this if there is no scale?

Great Love, what is your plan for me? 
I need to be prepared. Do you expect me to go naked?! 
I sense … ‘yes’.

Eyes are beginning to see … 
What I think of as waiting, containing, resisting … 
You want me to just ‘let go’.

My heart sends a light upward to break up the blockage in my throat. 
A smile results. 
Your blessing is received.

Great Love, I have returned to your flow, filled with gratitude. 
My eyes had closed to the holy journey I have been placed within. 
I am here for the experience … please keep reminding me.

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This psalm was written as a homework assignment for a seminary elective about the Psalms. It has been a balm for some stress due to beginning year two of OSLI seminary program.