I am determined to see things differently.

1-21-2024

Yesterday, the lesson had us set our desire and intent to see. Today, we are given a lesson in how to do that – to see truthfully.

There are so many things within ourselves that we have decided on what they are, how they make us feel, and what impact they have on our lives. To clear our judgements we ask, ‘How can I see this differently?’

In the practice periods, we are asked to scan our thoughts and beliefs for those that give us subtle feelings of influence. These, the lesson says, hide anger and attack. These we should ask to see differently.

In my practice, the subtle twinge I noticed was on the lesson’s request to do the practices.

I prefer journaling over practice periods. I don’t want the responsibility to remember or the guilt when I don’t do them.

I am determined to see this differently.

1-21-2023

“The degree of emotion (anger) you experience does not matter. You will become increasingly aware that a slight twinge of annoyance is nothing but a veil drawn over intense fury.”

I’ve come to understand, and appreciate, the intelligence of my body. The Course teaches that the body is a communication device. I ignored the messages of tingling for years, with the last two years having the messages come as pain. Dr. R. uses kinesiology, which has brought forward more messages.

In my own practices, I move the energy. Dr. R. asked me this week if I ask the pain for its message. I do not. I also do not ask others about their pain. I’m afraid of questioning as I might learn, and be pulled into things that I don’t want.

“I am determined to see things differently.”

There are big walls around me.

“Many seek protection from all hurting influences by building some wall around themselves. But the canopy over the earth is so high that a wall cannot be built high enough, and the only thing one can do is to live in the midst of all inharmonious influences, to strengthen his will power and to bear all things, yet keeping the fineness of character and a nobleness of manner together with an ever-living heart. To become cold with the coldness of the world is weakness, and to become broken by the hardness of the world is feebleness, but to live in the world and yet to keep above the world is like walking on the water.” ~ Hazrat Inayat Khan, Bowl of Saki, 1-21-2023

Your walls have not worked Tricia … and they are in opposition to your desire to open your heart.

Help!