Happy Sunday!
Very rough week this week. I’m not sure what to call it: work stress, fighting an illness, energy upgrade symptoms?
Why is it necessary to label it? Why can’t it just be?
It seems to me that there needs to be a label to share it, my experience, with those around me.
Yes, words are needed to share but, to find the ones that don’t send a charge to others would be good.
So, this week, I was so stressed at work. I don’t think that I express’s that (outwardly), but I have a couple of questions here:
- It stunk for me so how to improve that?
- Don’t others feel that energy anyway?
Number 2 first. Yes they feel it but spoken words then direct it at them and most people will take it on. Good job with work partners, to not burden them with what you are creating.
That’s it! I recognize I am creating it. The stress, the need to get thru every task NOW so there is no long task list ahead to burden me.
You choose to create and carry the burden.
Yes. I keep reviewing my Human Design User Manual to help me understand me. I now understand that my energy (talents) lie in my center (throat, heart, emotions, and sacral) so I should let go of my belief of my intellect being the means of being effective in this life.
Good, but you are always more than just one thing … so don’t latch onto another crutch. Feelings have been strong so you take notice of them.
What are you saying? Please explain.
We are here. Use us as guidance.
(OK then) there are design tasks I want to do and management tasks that I just want to get passed.
Negative perception.
Don’t my feelings support this? I want to work on the things I like and not the other (sometimes) confrontational tasks.
None of it needs to be confrontational, or good for that matter. “Carry water, chop wood.” You are making/creating duality within yourself related to your work which should just be. It is not who you are. It will not matter which task is chosen months from now.
Perhaps the ‘Human Design’ me is messing me up. It seems that my main traits (per HD) are related to being the go getter, leader, and efficient power house to get things done. Identity does seem to come from work.
Work is your creation. What are you creating?
Right now I am confused so it seems I am creating confusion. [Yes.] What I thought of myself was introvert, lazy, do for others before myself, unkind, unsocial. Actually … I don’t know. As I form a list opposites keep rising in my mind such as overdoing for others to the point of being ill and yet times when my choices were what was most comfortable for me.
To everything there is a season.
So I am all things. [At times.] Then what is Human Design about?
It is not to define you or provide an identity. It gives tools to deal with everything that comes into your experience. The tools to best allow it to interact, record, and flow through your particular energy field.
(I am imaging myself inside a torus shaped energy bubble.)
You are a whole field; events will approach from different directions, interact with your nodes.
(I see flashes of lights in the field as it is triggered.)
Human Design should expand your awareness of why greater flashes, in the form of emotions, may arise from some events versus others. It’s all energy. The book is a story of energy. You are not one thing or another, you are All. And All are ALL.
OK, thinking of events as energy triggers can be a good tool to aid in moving events thru and staying in flow. But, getting to the nitty-gritty … there are still tasks I want to do and those I don’t.
Create them all to be as you want. Affirmations, “I’m good at it all.” “It’s all the same, contributing to the same goals.”
Meaningless … in the long run, it seems.
How can that be when learning such as is happening now is occurring? The stories of this life, one of the great ones in your book, weave together in your seekers journey to keep you moving forward in growth.
So it’s discomfort that keeps me moving forward?
Very negative today. And what of the accomplishments? What of those things that have allowed you to recognize within yourself: wisdom, strength, compassion, mentorship, courage, grace, intellect, surrender, humility, Faith, tolerance, ableness? So many traits to push aside the falseness of unworthiness.
Do I stay working just because I am good at it? [Yes.] I think I am past needing my job to know I am worthy.
So now time to use it to do for others, individuals and community. Give support. Use skills until the time has come to use skills elsewhere. Future timelines are your creation.
Many routes are possible?
Yes. What you are feeling today is where your attention should lie … Big work happening NOW. Within!
So the tasks are neither good nor bad. What about fun or mundane?
What do you bring to them for others? Yes you are good at what you do as you have gone through the experiences and have a higher perception of outcomes. The more you share this with others the more the work will flow off you, to be their lessons on their journey.
The Guru does not do the work at the Ashram. They did their work in the physical to be able to release and realize what it holds for their growth. After that they hold the energy for the students – just a beacon of where to head.
I said the other day I want to be like Yoda, just sitting quiet in a corner at work, training students, and rarely having to draw my light saber.
Do it. Get there. Do less not more. Be meditative at work, let the tasks flow. Give answers to those that approach. Teach. Ask what they’ve come to know/learn.
Assigning tasks feels uncomfortable, perhaps over burdening to some others but, also not getting good results when the employee is not seeing the benefit to the work for them.
Their work is for their growth. Put the requirements on the task. Allow projects to delay due to staff issues – your supervisors allow for it. They show respect for the employee more than you do. Stop doing it all.
It’s always about the way I want it [Control.] … But, also knowing the pros & cons to doing otherwise.
Explain, if the issue is there then have them fix, otherwise allow. Gurus can be difficult, distant, but know when to be present, when timing is right for the lesson.