T-6.II Projection and Separation.

4-6-2025

“You cannot love what you do not appreciate … Whenever you are afraid of what you are, you do not appreciate it and will therefore reject it.” (1.4-5)

This morning, while in contemplation, I said, ‘I am loving’. This felt like a significant realization, something I have not said of myself before. If I have not believed this of myself, have I been projecting something onto others?

If I have not believed myself as loving than I might be fearful, able to hurt someone through attack or, my tool of choice, indifference. So, if I have subconsciously believed myself as hurtful, is this the cause of fear of others, that they will hurt me in return? [Yes!] Is this my fear of intimacy? [Yes, and more.]

I am loving. I know how to be loving I am recognizing that I am not trustworthy in my lovability as I see in myself my ability to shut-off and turn-away. So, do I project on others that they are not trustworthy with loving me? [Yes.]

When I am present in my divine center, I think that I am constant in being loving and trustworthy. There does seem to be an appeal to go off into my mind to disassociate with others, like loving is hard work and I deserve a break. I think these are feelings of the past, of ‘loving’ as I was ‘supposed to’, therefore acting in the loving relationship roles I played, doing it by myself, separated from God. That was not the love as I understand it today.

Love, that created me, is what I am, in every moment if I choose to open to It’s presence, here, now, always.