I will not be afraid of Love today.

10-9-2024

“This the determination not to be asleep in dreams of death, while truth remains forever living in the joy of Love.”

I am as God created me. Love created me as Love, to be Love in this world. What is this thing that holds me back?

It seems to me that a focus on death would inspire Love in the now. The fear is more than just the metaphoric phrase ‘fear of death’. Fear of rejection is what I sense … pushed away into isolation, loneliness, as well as the insecurity of injury while expecting a long painful death – that is a big fear.

And yet, as I have now labeled it, I feel comfortable to question it. Who will reject me and banish me to risk of harm? No one I know … just myself by being afraid of Love.

“I will not be afraid of Love today.”

In it joy is present.

10-9-2023

“Let me know be afraid of truth today.”

The lesson states that my name is Love.

God is Love. I am Love. In my mind I restore God as Love as I think of Love as a force of the universe – it is gravity but with the intention to manifest, experience, and grow.

God as ‘the observer’ (a quantum physics term) continuously intends for our Sun to shine, to be and to give life to all in its domain. I imagine that if God took God’s intent away from the Sun … poof … everything in this part of the galaxy would disappear. It would return to just spirit – energy.

If so, this would mean that Love is God’s intention to keep this going; Love is God’s desire to sustain His child.

I am a receiver of that, but am I also that Love?

These last weeks with my mom, I have expectations and make plans. Nothing goes per plan. God’s way, not my way. It seems I am not the creator-Love like God is.

If I was, my beliefs of being separate would be true!

I surrender. I connect. I am part of God’s system of Love. I am not Love because I do as God does but because I am part of that. (Fractal!)

I support the Sun shining today. Father, I support You Loving me. How am I meant to Love? Be Love?

“What would You have me do? Where would You have me go? What would You have me say and to whom?”

In this way I am Love. I will not be afraid.

10-11-2022

My name is Love. I am afraid of Love. I see it as limited so I don’t share it. I want for others to offer it to me before I allow it to flow. Why?!!

I observe this still in myself after many years of being able to label it and describe it: aloof, indifferent, introverted. I don’t want these as excuses or identifiers for myself.

My name is Love. I am Love. And yet, I block the flow. Its enough! Help! (I think I just need a reminder to not fall into my old patterns when I am in a group.)

Richard Rohr spoke today of ‘second gaze’ of others, allowing for compassion. This made me feel better about myself, that it’s just not only me that can’t get past initial judgements.

Will ‘second gaze’ remind me to give love, express love, and not wait to be given it first? I sense YES!