I do not perceive my own best interests.

1-24-2024

“In no situation that arises do you realize the outcome that would make you happy.”

I dropped my car off for service this morning and there was some tension regarding my service plan covering the work. When I got home, I used this situation for my practice. I came up with at least four goals that I would like to act on – to say something further to the service staff. My goals conflicted with each other as the lesson points out. What I had in mind to say could have been heard as an attack by the service staff.

Were any of my thoughts (goals as the lesson calls them) in my own best interest? I don’t know.

I’m not sure what is in my own best interest in this situation.

(Later, when I picked up my car, I just was friendly and let my thoughts vanish.)

1-24-2023

This lesson is very different. For the practice, I thought about finding something out is the world to do with my time. I formed a list of nine different outcomes I would like. A few had added notes, such as ‘get a job – with conditions’ or ‘meet people – with conditions’.

I guess I must like my life because I don’t want at job to take up too much of my time. And I want to interact with new people but I don’t want to get too involved in other people’s lives.

What is my best interest, Lord?

I suspect this lesson is meant for us to arrive at confusion and question for future lessons on surrendering to God’s way.

I say, I am ready. Am I?