T-10-II The Will to Remember God.

5-17-2025

“Unless you know something, you cannot dissociate it. Knowledge therefore precedes dissociation, and dissociation is nothing more than a decision to forget.” (1.1-2)

“You are afraid of your dissociation, not of what you have dissociated.” (1.5)

Why? Why fearful that I then dissociated? I used my will to turn away from God’s will so I fear attack from God.

Why do I think God would attack? I get that there are may generations of ‘fear of God’ socialization in my psyche, but I feel the need to think past that – I chose my will over God’s Will eons ago.

‘I wanted to play’ is the thought arising. Isn’t there playtime in God’s Kingdom? Are there so many rules that options outside of joy and peace were appealing to me?

I’m thinking of a young child, under 5-years-old, who is loved, protected, and given much to play with, but still walks away from the safe place to try things that may hurt her. This is all to satisfy desires for learning and independence. Were these ‘mad ideas’ an idea of God’s to instill these desires in us?

Many spiritual theorists say that we cannot know our true selves without researching what we are not? The idea that we are asleep in the Kingdom of God, having mad dreams, is what the Course teachings give me.

I’ve done enough dreaming, dear God. I will to remember my place in You.