I am always striving to remember and act on devotion of God. With my recent lessons from ACIM, Masters of the Far East, as well as other resources on Christ Consciousness, these lessons are saying that I am God, Christ, Everything. This is called ‘The Way’.

So, I find it perplexing to reconcile devotion to God with ‘The Way’. Devotion now seems to make God separate from me. And yet, my heart desires the lovely intimacy of the Sufi poets who express the ecstasy of the love they feel from their ongoing devotion.

The Way path concerns me as I wonder if it could be construed as narcissism.

Regina Meredith’s recent interview with Tiffany Barsotti (Gaia, Open Minds, S17:Ep6) they spoke of narcissism coming from a childhood of having to continually protect and defend yourself. A child always being put down, so your inner dialogue had to defend to preserve the self.

Care and love for yourself.

I want to reflect on this with the person who walks the path of The Way. (My inner voice says that loving-kindness is the key so this will stay key to this reflection.)

Loving-kindness should be the essence of The Way student rather than the defensiveness of the narcissist.

Thinking of myself … I can see how I might be considered a narcissist when I act to care for myself first, and If my energy feels defensive instead of loving-kindness. I am defensive as I am aware that the culture expects weakness and compliance over self-confidence and self-care. There is guilt in me about self-care so that is in my energy field.

I’ve always wondered why I can offer advice it seems accepted when other times it is like I cannot be heard. I think if people sense fear and guilt behind the words they sense that they are not your truth, so they don’t accept them. When loving-kindness is the energy of the words they can be heard and offer assistance.

Is this my truth?

I should ask myself this so that I can speak with loving-kindness. More Self-confidence is what is needed – notice the Self with the capital ‘S’.

I still have fear that I won’t be heard as that is my experience. But this new realization explains why my words are not accepted. I am wavering inside.

Namaste’