“All things are lessons that God would have us learn.” ~ Iyanla Vanzant
Happy Sunday!
Once again Sadhguru has given me something to mull over. Pointing to his heart I heard him say that we need to be able to say “I don’t know.” I felt strong resistance within myself to saying “I don’t know”, especially coming from my heart.
Sadhguru says that we all should be seekers; he doesn’t promote our seeking or desiring a goal, just to acknowledge that we don’t know Life and what is within ourselves. Perhaps he is saying that is where the journey begins. He talks about humans always wanting more than we have so if we can say sincerely “I don’t know” than wanting more would be to want to know.
So I have been trying all week to get comfortable with “I don’t know”. I push against it because I recognize that I know so much more now than I did just 4 years ago. I see how blind I was to everything around me and how caught up I was in all the stuff (I sweep my hand through the air as if to brush away gnats, all that stuff of the past that had my attention causing fear and pain.)
I do know. I know a lot and have worked hard to keep God and Love forward in my mind and heart. And, I have had my new understandings validated by the Universe and have seen the rewards.
Can I say I don’t know?
I said a prayer the other evening for help on this. Shortly after this prayer another video of Sadhguru helped to give me some new perspective. He said if the Universe is made of a million puzzle pieces and you just have 20-30 pieces, how much do you know of the Universe?
This I can understand. This brings humility. I know the Universe, God, All That Is, is far beyond my comprehension. But I have, and appreciate, the pieces to the puzzle that I have received. They are great gifts to me. But there is so much more I don’t know because I haven’t received those pieces yet.
I was reading the closing of chapter 17 of The Impersonal Life, entitled “Finding Me”. The message of this book is:  Be still – and KNOW – I AM – God. The last few paragraphs say to surrender it all.

I thought about my blog of last week wherein I spoke about my not trusting the Universe with my children (link here). I’ve been noticing there are many things in my life that I don’t trust to God – my health for one. I am always looking for the thing I did to make me feel unwell and the natural remedy to fix it; or a change of diet or lifestyle to eliminate it. Part of me says this is my controlling things and part says my interest and desire comes from God.
Be still and know. I know that through being quiet, meditative, reflective, that the need for action will show itself. Let go and let God say what and when. So I am going to keep an eye open for the things that I feel I must do on my own and control.
Ego … edging God out. This is what I do with many things. I take control, must do it myself, without thought of bringing God into it. I am not a good sharer. I ask for help changing this.
Another thing that Sadhguru talks about that has been bothering me is belief. He says that belief is the cause of all violence. Ultimately it is what separates us, my belief that I am different from you. Or, my belief that God wants something that differs from your understanding of God.
Don’t we need belief as part of our relationship to God?
I realized that in my mind I was confusing belief with Faith. I can trust in God, the creator and nurturer of my evolution.
Sadhguru is mostly right. I can see that we can live our lives without all beliefs except one. We must believe that there is a Creator who made everyone and everything. On this belief we can surrender to live in Faith that God is on our side.
Knowing this I can say, “I don’t know. But, I know you know.”
Amen.