Once again, I say \u2018Yes!\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThis the decision not to be insane, and to accept myself as God Himself, my Father and my Source, created me.\u201d [CE W-282.1:2]<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lately, I notice myself pulling away from the few communities that I do have. I am part of one organization that is having its biggest fundraiser tomorrow and I have not participated because of traveling. My thoughts went to leaving the group as I feel I have nothing to offer. Yesterday, I saw some of the promotion material for the event come up on Facebook and it made me laugh. This gave me a spark to consider another way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was reminded of seminary where there was always someone I was thanking for offering me love and support through my studies and growth. This made me realize that I could share with the group my enjoyment of the Facebook event posts in support of their efforts. I sent the email last evening.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As I write this, I had an \u2018A-ha!\u2019 that ministry is supporting others in their actions. I am a doer, one who must do things my own way through planning and controlling outcomes. My habit is to pull away when I am not the one doing to leave others to do their own thing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I said yes to ministry which shows me that I have a role in supporting others in their efforts. The old me thought that I would just be in the way (and dealing with frustration at not controlling things).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am a minister of God. I can be present, extending love, in support of the actions of those I am in relationship with.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThis the determination not to be asleep in dreams of death, while truth remains forever living in the joy of Love.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I am as God created me. Love created me as Love, to be Love in this world. What is this thing that holds me back?<\/p>\n\n\n\n It seems to me that a focus on death would inspire Love in the now. The fear is more than just the metaphoric phrase \u2018fear of death\u2019. Fear of rejection is what I sense \u2026 pushed away into isolation, loneliness, as well as the insecurity of injury while expecting a long painful death \u2013 that is a big fear. <\/p>\n\n\n\n And yet, as I have now labeled it, I feel comfortable to question it. Who will reject me and banish me to risk of harm? No one I know \u2026 just myself by being afraid of Love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cI will not be afraid of Love today.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n In it joy is present.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cLet me know be afraid of truth today.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n The lesson states that my name is Love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n God is Love. I am Love. In my mind I restore God as Love as I think of Love as a force of the universe \u2013 it is gravity but with the intention to manifest, experience, and grow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n God as \u2018the observer\u2019 (a quantum physics term) continuously intends for our Sun to shine, to be and to give life to all in its domain. I imagine that if God took God\u2019s intent away from the Sun \u2026 poof \u2026 everything in this part of the galaxy would disappear. It would return to just spirit \u2013 energy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If so, this would mean that Love is God\u2019s intention to keep this going; Love is God\u2019s desire to sustain His child.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I am a receiver of that, but am I also that Love?<\/p>\n\n\n\n These last weeks with my mom, I have expectations and make plans. Nothing goes per plan. God\u2019s way, not my way. It seems I am not the creator-Love like God is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If I was, my beliefs of being separate would be true!<\/p>\n\n\n\n I surrender. I connect. I am part of God\u2019s system of Love. I am not Love because I do as God does but because I am part of that. (Fractal!)<\/p>\n\n\n\n I support the Sun shining today. Father, I support You Loving me. How am I meant to Love? Be Love?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cWhat would You have me do? Where would You have me go? What would You have me say and to whom?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n In this way I am Love. I will not be afraid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My name is Love. I am afraid of Love. I see it as limited so I don\u2019t share it. I want for others to offer it to me before I allow it to flow. Why?!!<\/p>\n\n\n\n I observe this still in myself after many years of being able to label it and describe it: aloof, indifferent, introverted. I don\u2019t want these as excuses or identifiers for myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My name is Love. I am Love. And yet, I block the flow. Its enough! Help! (I think I just need a reminder to not fall into my old patterns when I am in a group.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n Richard Rohr spoke today of \u2018second gaze\u2019 of others, allowing for compassion. This made me feel better about myself, that it\u2019s just not only me that can\u2019t get past initial judgements.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Will \u2018second gaze\u2019 remind me to give love, express love, and not wait to be given it first? I sense YES!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I will not be afraid of Love today. 10-9-2026 Once again, I say \u2018Yes!\u2019 \u201cThis the decision not to be insane, and to accept myself as God Himself, my Father and my Source, created me.\u201d [CE W-282.1:2] Lately, I notice … Continue reading 10-9-2023<\/h1>\n\n\n\n
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