Which \u2018me\u2019 am I identifying with right now?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This lesson title bothers me. I have grown significantly by considering the troublesome parts of me as just that, parts of me, not the whole of me. This title indicates that they are not even within me. I certainly feel them influencing me all of the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I saw a meme on Facebook in the last day or so that helped me get clarity on this. It was posted in an ACIM group and showed a man asking who he was and to the side were several versions of him: the body, the victim, the sick one, the angry one, and the dying one. It took me a minute to notice that sitting above these parts was a glorified, lit up version of him \u2013 his true Self.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oh yes, this is level confusion again. What suffers is not part of \u2018true Self me\u2019. I get to choose which level of me I want to identify with.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNow is Your love remembered, and my own.<\/em> Now do I understand that they are one.\u201d<\/em> [CE W-248.2:3-4]<\/p>\n\n\n\n I chose this line from the lesson as I recognized that I don\u2019t understand that God\u2019s Love and my love are one. This says to me that I have not chosen to be in my true Self to have come to know that Love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cI have disowned the truth.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n This is true for me as I resist the idea of this lesson. When I measure my experiences against the ACIM definition of reality as only that which is eternal, then I can logically agree. But, it does not feel right to negate parts of myself. Looking over my 2023 notes for this lesson, I see that I was feeling similarly back then. I like what Hollie offered in her notes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cYou are not the clouds, the storms, the rainfall. You are the sky \u2026 that sees these weather systems pass.\u201d<\/em> ~ Hollie Holden<\/p>\n\n\n\n This says to me that my big \u2018Self\u2019 role here is as observer and experiencer. The storms that roll through are \u2018the experiences\u2019 and are therefore of service to my purpose as a soul in this world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Everything belongs.<\/em> (Thinking of Fr. Richard.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n I just need to come to accept and appreciate what is in my experience. Forgiveness happens when I no longer judge it and can perhaps love it for what it offers me in growth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n This lesson title confused me. Do I deny parts of me? Don\u2019t they all serve me, such as the body telling me of problems?<\/p>\n\n\n\n I thought of how Jesus might have related to his body and understood that he would know this true Self. He spoke of seeing this in others, therefore he\u2019d have been able to bring wholeness to the body from the true Self template (ie. astral body, energy body).<\/p>\n\n\n\n The next thought I had was, \u2018we are the tail wagging the dog\u2019.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I am proud that in my life I have learned to listen to my body, to give it what it needs for health and healing. This is what I thought the Course meant by the body being a communication device. I\u2019m mistake \u2026 more to learn. Perhaps we are meant to receive direction from our true Self (rather than our minds or our bodies). This would then be the love that we express (give) to others. And receive love back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yesterday, I watched a video of a woman who I consider very wise. In the video she said that she was proud to realize herself as empty. I immediately desired to be this way. Now, after this reflection, I realize that to say \u2018I am empty\u2019 is to still identify with the body and\/or individual self. I don\u2019t think the true Self would be empty as we empty the small self to bring the true Self into our awareness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n (Or, perhaps, the true Self is an empty vessel until it is informed of God\u2019s will for our next experience.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n (The prayer is beautiful and perfect at this moment.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n For the last couple of days I\u2019ve been down. I think an old block in my soul was triggered. I mean really old past life stuff. I sense it was regarding the treatment of women in the past as some changes in gender awareness and sexuality have upset me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cWhatever suffers is not part of me.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n This lesson inspired me to go into meditation to release it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cFather, my ancient love for you returns.\u201d<\/em> What was unreal has been released.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My mind goes to Richard Rohr\u2019s reflection this morning: \u2018everything belongs \u2013 good, bad, ugly.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n I need to piece this together \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n I had a block in my soul. My soul is real as it is eternal. I created the block from something in the past, therefore allowing something unreal and false to be carried in my energy. The unreal thing came from this physical place of illusion where all things are allowed to play out \u2013 the good, bad, and ugly. They belong here and are for the benefit of the evolution of All.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cFather, I am as you created me.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Whatever suffers is not part of me. 9-5-2026 Which \u2018me\u2019 am I identifying with right now? This lesson title bothers me. I have grown significantly by considering the troublesome parts of me as just that, parts of me, not the … Continue reading 9-5-2024<\/h1>\n\n\n\n
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