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As I haven’t been successful at sitting myself down on Sunday Morning for reflection and development of thoughts that float thru my mind I decided to publish notes that made it into my notebook because there were some good thoughts and insights this month. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Covid-19 stay-in orders continue.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

May 3rd<\/sup><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thinking about the phrase \u2018the ghost in the machine\u2019. I\nrecall, at a time in my past, not really understanding the meaning behind this\nphrase. Now I feel the ghost, I am the ghost. The body is the machine. For most\nof my life I identified with \u2018I am\u2019 being the machine, the physical body. When\nI have conversations with others, now I must remind myself that they still\nidentify themselves with the body and have compassion. A big sign that I have\ngrown and now have a broader perspective. Of course I couldn\u2019t understand what\nthis phrase meant when I had no perspective that there was more than the\nmachine\/body me who did what was culturally expected of me \u2026 survival mode. Now\nI live more. J<\/p>\n\n\n\n

May 5th<\/sup>\u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lower consciousness is living in the wheels of karma. Higher\nlive in dharma, within your purpose. ~ Toni Galardi interviewed on Healing\nMatrix on Gaia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This quote had me reflecting on my purpose. With these\nreflections came \u2018higher\u2019 elevated feelings, I could just begin to feel and\nunderstand what living in dharma might be like. This was a concept that had\nnever gained my attention before. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Before falling to sleep that night I listened to a Kryon\naudio (4-15-20). He spoke about giving; people who help the poor, sick, those\nin need, he said this is \u2018giving lite\u2019. A shallow compassion. As he gave the\nlisting of ways people give I felt bad as my mind said \u2018I don\u2019t do this\u2019. He\nsaid the greatest giving is forgiveness, this was mature giving, extending\ncompassion to one who offended you, understanding and seeing yourself in the\nOther. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This I can do! My dharma is forgiveness \u2013 bringing out the\nlight \u2018good and bad\u2019 in everything. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

May 8th<\/sup><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I had one of my bad sneezing, nose running, days a week or\nso ago. I realized it is not allergies but a nerve issue, from my neck over my\nhead to my sinuses, eyes, and teeth. Oxipetal neuralgia is what a loved one was\ndiagnosed with a few years back so I know the name. I know it is stress in my\nneck and upper back (have had shoulder pain too) that puts the pressure on the\nnerve. I also know that I am first an energy being and that my throat chakra is\nblocked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I watched Healing Matrix on Gaia interview with Ellen\nEatough entitled Honest Sex. In the interview they said something interesting,\nthat blocks in the throat chakra are connected to blocks in creative and sex\nenergy (fifth and second chakras connected). This made me feel like I needed to\ntalk, just start saying anything. I did think about how speaking un-filtered\nwould probably not be good for my relationships. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Before going to sleep I thought about my feelings during my\nconversation this day with a loved one. There were several times I could have\nspoken up with ideas about politics or Covid-19 but I held back, not saying\nwhat I wanted to say. There were parts of the conversation about family that I\nspoke in support of her that felt really good. So I realized while lying there\nin bed that there is nothing wrong with not speaking everything that enters my\nmind. Thoughts can be powerful when they become words; before that they are\njust thoughts – ideas based on beliefs of the moment. They just enter the mind,\nand then it is the mind that chooses to make them important. They feel\nimportant because they come to represent who I want to pretend to be,\nsupporting current beliefs that I hold. This is the ego mind. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My higher Self mind understands that the ideas behind the\nthoughts that may enter my mind are not important enough to me to express as\nwords. Those words would represent my ego self who wants to say something to\nlook informed or \u2018ahead of the game\u2019 in these crazy times but none of that is\nwho I desire to be. They don\u2019t represent my true Self, my eternal Self.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So I choose to let those ideas and thoughts float through my\nenergy field. I choose no longer to think that I am holding back on expressing\nmyself with regards to the non-permanent things going on in the exterior world.\n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t hold them as blocks \u2013 released! J<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I declare them unimportant because any at moment I could\nchange my beliefs about what seems important today. I will try to define my\ngoal here as a tool to recognize when I am putting energy into not-important\ninformation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Goal: Seeking Truth -> gain understanding -> know True\nSelf. <3<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Samskara \u2013 I learned a while back that samskara is Sanskrit\nfor energy blocks in our field. Today I have a new understanding. I thought\nsamskaras formed for events and emotions outside our control. For instance: a\nchildhood trauma that has been stuck, that has triggered reactions of fear or\nanger, that once taking the time using traditional tools (psychotherapy, yoga,\nmeditation), they can come up and move through. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Today I understand that ideas become beliefs (which may even\ninclude \u2018spiritual tools\u2019) can form the blocks. For me, the thoughts I form that\nsay \u2018I don\u2019t express myself\u2019, when doing so create blocks in my throat chakra.\nInstead, I bring forward gratitude for my internal filters that allow thoughts\nto form and my \u2018me Self\u2019 to choose either \u2018say it\u2019 or \u2018NOPE\u2019. I know I will now\nbe happy to say a big internal \u201cNOPE\u201d instead of thinking inside \u201cI wish I\ncould say what I want\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am thinking right now that there are 2 types of \u2018happy\u2019 within\nme. There is the \u2018ego happy\u2019 and the \u2018real me\u2019 happy. When I see a funny meme\nor get to sneak into a conversation a few fringe ideas I feel happy. But, this\nfeels like a childish happy … like I felt as a child when bragging at school\nabout something others didn\u2019t have or getting something over on my siblings. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ego happy = childish happy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So what is real happy? It relates to Love … memories of\nfamily time, my babies, young love, good conversations, pussy cats, heart\ncenteredness, mystical experiences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Love, Love, Love. I should add to my internal filters the question\n\u201cis this about Love?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

May 11th<\/sup><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I couldn\u2019t fall to sleep so I went downstairs to find\nsomething inspirational. I found it. It was a video from Caroline Myss on\nYouTube, posted 5-9-20.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

She related these times to a time she spent walking the El\nCamino in Spain. She explained how the path went through towns as well as the\ncountryside. While on the path everyone she encountered was open, sharing,\nkind, and would greet each other by saying, \u2018blessed Camino\u2019. While walking on\nthe path through towns she could step off of the path (by just 1 inch, she said\nfor emphasis) and the energy would change to the hustle and bustle of local\npeople going about their obligations (my description). She said she would step\nback on the path and feel the flow toward God, this was the flow of Grace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I fully agree with her relating this to today (Covid-19 lock\ndowns). My energies change significantly based on where my attention is. I feel\nthe flow of Grace when I bringing my mind and my heart back to the present\nmoment, to the future I desire, to gratitude, and to \u2018light, Love, and I am\u2019.\nThe energy is chaotic when attention is on politics and \u2018who did what\u2019. I am\nhappy the energy feels good when I speak with my loved ones.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Caroline said we shouldn\u2019t say \u2018getting back to normal\u2019. We\nneed to think forward \u2013 attention on forward flow. Yes!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

May 15th<\/sup><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Conspiracy theories. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My thoughts are about the recent resistance I see related to\nthe possibility of tracking people due to Covid-19 \u2013 to find people who may\nhave been in contact with someone who contracts the virus. The Twitter-verse\nkeeps saying we are losing our rights. I had thought negatively about the\ntracking but then I decided to look at it differently \u2013 may be it could be\nbeneficial (good and bad in everything). Wouldn\u2019t it be ideal if you are hurt\nor lost that help comes right away? They just know where you are. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I realized that conspiracy theorists seem to expect that\neverything hidden is for bad reasons by bad people. I don\u2019t think most people\nare bad. I think most people are good so even if plans are made, with things\nhidden from the public, they don\u2019t have to be harmful, negative, or bad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Recently heard Regina Meredith say Conservatives want to\nconserve, to keep things as they have always been. Creation is change. I\nsupport change. Technologies can be good. Discernment is needed to find the\nLove and the caring for others in the new tools that are coming. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

May 28th<\/sup><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

For a couple of weeks now I have been saying in my mind that\nI need to find a novel to read. The spiritual\/self-help books are not keeping\nmy attention and social media is grabbing too much of my time. I feel my energy\nlowered when I get off social media so I look for something to lift my energy\nagain. Therefore, I just felt it that getting lost in a spiritual novel would\ndo the trick. James Redfield also kept popping into my mind so I looked to see\nif he had any novels past the Celestine Prophecy (CP) series. He didn\u2019t so I\nresolved to read CP again \u2026 so glad for this choice. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

As I began the book I decided I would use it as a tool to\ntrack how far I\u2019ve come. It\u2019s kind of a test for both me and James: do his\ninsights prophesize the spiritual journey I have been on and, if he is accurate,\n\u2018how am I doing?\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stay tuned for my insights on CP insights. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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