I want to share and then to be rewarded with the other\n\u2018getting\u2019 or understanding the same as I do from the material or media I wish\nto share. It comes back to that I still want outside validation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No dear, you want\nconnection. Do not fall back to victim thinking that you are less, unworthy, or\nlooking for validation of Self from others. It is not that. You need others:\nlike minded, your tribe. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Where is it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n You really need to\nwant it and you\u2019re not there. You are still in the place (belief) that you are\nOK by yourself \u2013 that has worked to allow you to advance to this place but NOW\nneeds more.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Am I looking outside to serve others or to join others for my\nconnection to be able to continue my seeker\u2019s path?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2026 limiting yourself\nwith the question to limit the response.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Caught! There is still fear here. Fear of others.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Name it all and argue\nit.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Fear of others as equals, my tribe. Are they really out\nthere? I feel like I will be judgmental to others in the group if they are too\n\u2018woo-woo\u2019, \u2018airy-fairy\u2019 and just not right. I might see their beliefs as more\nor less than mine as there is such a vast array of interests for spiritual\nseekers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n How can you know? If\nyou request the guidance to the right group why can\u2019t you trust it is right?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n That\u2019s the issue. If I do see and judge something as different\nto me and then add the thought that I was guided here I might change who I am\nand that wouldn\u2019t be right.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Discernment \u2026 there it\nis. You will need to use the tools you\u2019ve learned. This time alone has been in\npreparation. Don\u2019t doubt that. Know that you are ready to use your tools.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n There is another fear that I will fall back to \u2026 old habits.\nFor example, on Friday night I argued with Peter. He said I said something in\nthe past that I strongly felt I did not. I felt I could not let it go. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Evidence to use your\nwords carefully, properly. Say what you think and feel. Don\u2019t abbreviate or use\nphrasing just for wit. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n (I received the understanding that Peter may have understood\nsomething different then what I had felt just because I had used a witty catch\nphase instead of saying just what I was thinking and feeling. I chose to be\nbrief and come off as intelligent but had instead had what I was saying be\nreceived totally different from my inner expression.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n OK, I need to work on my words, which means exact expression\nof my feelings and intent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Very good. No \u2018catch\u2019\nphrasing. Back to fears \u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Fear of serving others. I am afraid they will want too much\nof me. I want my alone time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Why?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I fear I will go back to being like I was when my children\nwere young. I gave so much. I was empty, low, and unable to do what I needed to\ndo with Love. I was unable to make decisions using a higher viewpoint of\nconsideration for others. I was just surviving. My decisions were made to just\nget past the current difficulty to one day have peace. I have peace now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n What about happiness?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Why is that dependent on others?<\/p>\n\n\n\n It comes from flow.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Isn\u2019t there flow, now, from me to Source?<\/p>\n\n\n\n It\u2019s not enough. Not\nenough for you. Think Trinity.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n (The homily of Father Richard Rohr that I listened to this\nmorning from Sunday 6-16-19 \u201cNo one is ready for the shape of God\u201d, spoke of the\nTrinity. I took some notes: \u201cInfinite Love makes the 3 into One. Father: God\ninfinite for you. Son: God\/Jesus infinitely with you. Spirit: God infinitely in\nyou.\u201d)<\/p>\n\n\n\n It seems like the flow works for the individual with the\nTrinity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yes, but what about\nthe group?<\/em> (What is one is in the\nwhole<\/em>.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n Lightworker, do your\nwork for others. Awaken the Spirit! Help the flow to others for the group.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n So that sounds like I am to serve others directly. (Perhaps<\/em>) My mind just moved to thoughts\nof a preacher, such as Fr. Rohr, but that seems wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yes and no. It depends\non your style. Jesus told stories. You have life experiences.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Father Rohr can preach. He has wisdom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n He came from that\nauthority and practice. Think Caroline (Myss).<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n She has skills and abilities (medical intuitive and mystic)\nthat she can teach.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Not preach!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I don\u2019t have that \u2026 just experiences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n That can be enough \u2026 a\nplace to start. No preaching.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I just had a thought for this blog to separate these\nconversations and go back to writing of my experiences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Good. But still need\nto connect with others, in person. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cPerson\u201d doesn\u2019t feel like definite guidance, perhaps an\nonline group can work for me?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Let it be one that\nmoves into more.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Serve or sharing?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Why not both? A\nsharing group will lead to service.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I like that \u2013 service as part of an organized group.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You are always part of\nsomething more. You must move away from the belief that you must do it all.\nVery strong in your family.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n How do I find this group? I am feeling and thinking about my\nhealing touch group.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Something will come\nthrough this.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Please make it obvious. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Conversation 21 with my Higher Self Dear She\/Lord: today help me to be in the flow. Thank you for the sparks of insight. 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