It seems to me that there needs to be a label to share it, my experience, with those around me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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<\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\nYes, words are needed\nto share but, to find the ones that don\u2019t send a charge to others would be\ngood.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n So, this week, I was so stressed at work. I don\u2019t think that\nI express’s that (outwardly), but I have a couple of questions here: <\/p>\n\n\n\n Number 2 first. Yes\nthey feel it but spoken words then direct it at them and most people will take\nit on. Good job with work partners, to not burden them with what you are\ncreating.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n That\u2019s it! I recognize I am creating it. The stress, the\nneed to get thru every task NOW so there is no long task list ahead to burden\nme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You choose to create\nand carry the burden.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Yes. I keep reviewing my Human Design User Manual to help me\nunderstand me. I now understand that my energy (talents) lie in my center\n(throat, heart, emotions, and sacral) so I should let go of my belief of my\nintellect being the means of being effective in this life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Good, but you are\nalways more than just one thing \u2026 so don\u2019t latch onto another crutch. Feelings\nhave been strong so you take notice of them.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n What are you saying? Please explain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n We are here. Use us as\nguidance.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n (OK then) there are design tasks I want to do and management\ntasks that I just want to get passed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Negative perception.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Don\u2019t my feelings support this? I want to work on the things\nI like and not the other (sometimes) confrontational tasks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n None of it needs to be\nconfrontational, or good for that matter. \u201cCarry water, chop wood.\u201d You are\nmaking\/creating duality within yourself related to your work which should just\nbe. It is not who you are. It will not matter which task is chosen months from\nnow.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Perhaps the \u2018Human Design\u2019 me is messing me up. It seems that my main traits (per HD) are related to being the go getter, leader, and efficient power house to get things done. Identity does seem to come from work.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Work is your creation.\nWhat are you creating?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Right now I am confused so it seems I am creating confusion.\n[Yes<\/em>.] What I thought of myself was\nintrovert, lazy, do for others before myself, unkind, unsocial. Actually \u2026 I\ndon\u2019t know. As I form a list opposites keep rising in my mind such as overdoing\nfor others to the point of being ill and yet times when my choices were what was\nmost comfortable for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n To everything there is a season.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n So I am all things. [At\ntimes.]<\/em> Then what is Human Design about?<\/p>\n\n\n\n It is not to define\nyou or provide an identity. It gives tools to deal with everything that comes\ninto your experience. The tools to best allow it to interact, record, and flow\nthrough your particular energy field. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n (I am imaging myself inside a torus shaped energy bubble.) <\/p>\n\n\n\n You are a whole field;\nevents will approach from different directions, interact with your nodes. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n (I see flashes of lights in the field as it is triggered.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n Human Design should expand your awareness of why greater flashes, in the form of emotions, may arise from some events versus others. It\u2019s all energy. The book is a story of energy. You are not one thing or another, you are All. And All are ALL.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n OK, thinking of events as energy triggers can be a good tool\nto aid in moving events thru and staying in flow. But, getting to the nitty-gritty\n\u2026 there are still tasks I want to do and those I don\u2019t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Create them all to be\nas you want. Affirmations, \u201cI\u2019m good at it all.\u201d \u201cIt\u2019s all the same,\ncontributing to the same goals.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Meaningless \u2026 in the long run, it seems.<\/p>\n\n\n\n How can that be when\nlearning such as is happening now is occurring? The stories of this life, one\nof the great ones in your book, weave together in your seekers journey to keep\nyou moving forward in growth.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n So it\u2019s discomfort that keeps me moving forward?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Very negative today.\nAnd what of the accomplishments? What of those things that have allowed you to\nrecognize within yourself: wisdom, strength, compassion, mentorship, courage,\ngrace, intellect, surrender, humility, Faith, tolerance, ableness? So many\ntraits to push aside the falseness of unworthiness. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Do I stay working just because I am good at it? [Yes<\/em>.] I think I am past needing my job\nto know I am worthy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So now time to use it\nto do for others, individuals and community. Give support. Use skills until the\ntime has come to use skills elsewhere. Future timelines are your creation.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Many routes are possible?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yes. What you are\nfeeling today is where your attention should lie \u2026 Big work happening NOW.\nWithin!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n So the tasks are neither good nor bad. What about fun or\nmundane?<\/p>\n\n\n\n What do you bring to\nthem for others? Yes you are good at what you do as you have gone through the\nexperiences and have a higher perception of outcomes. The more you share this\nwith others the more the work will flow off you, to be their lessons on their\njourney. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n The Guru does not do\nthe work at the Ashram. They did their work in the physical to be able to\nrelease and realize what it holds for their growth. After that they hold the\nenergy for the students \u2013 just a beacon of where to head.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I said the other day I want to be like Yoda, just sitting\nquiet in a corner at work, training students, and rarely having to draw my\nlight saber.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Do it. Get there. Do\nless not more. Be meditative at work, let the tasks flow. Give answers to those\nthat approach. Teach. Ask what they\u2019ve come to know\/learn.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Assigning tasks feels uncomfortable, perhaps over burdening\nto some others but, also not getting good results when the employee is not\nseeing the benefit to the work for them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Their work is for\ntheir growth. Put the requirements on the task. Allow projects to delay due to\nstaff issues \u2013 your supervisors allow for it. They show respect for the\nemployee more than you do. Stop doing it all.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n It\u2019s always about the way I want it [Control.] \u2026 But, also\nknowing the pros & cons to doing otherwise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Explain, if the issue is there then have them fix, otherwise allow. Gurus can be difficult, distant, but know when to be present, when timing is right for the lesson.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Happy Sunday! Very rough week this week. I\u2019m not sure what to call it: work stress, fighting an illness, energy upgrade symptoms? Why is it necessary to label it? Why can\u2019t it just be? It seems to me that there … Continue reading