This day is God’s. It is my gift to Him.

8-30-2023

“Give us what You would have received by us. You know all our desires and our wants.”

There are a couple of family things this week that have me worried so have manifested as pain in my jaw and head, once again. I notice.

Why do I still not trust You, Lord? Why do I not trust all the people involved who only want to do their best, who really care and can help in a way that I can’t?

I’m the third-party observer. I could be cheering others onto their best successes instead of falling back into fear.

Help HS! I continue in foolishness, trying to lead my life alone … as well as the lives of family members.

I am blessed in Your peace Lord. And so is everyone else.

8-30-2022

“I give this day to God.”

I do, but I am not comfortable with this. I agreed because it is a quiet day – God won’t get in the way of any major plans I have. This shows me I still don’t trust God. Or my need to control is greater than my want to be present with God. Truth!

Why do I need to be in control?

I like to have ‘a plan’. In my mind I like to be able to name a few ‘to do’ things just so I feel I’m somebody. I need an impressive list in case someone asks what I do: I write, I garden …

Sitting on the couch, cleaning my house, relaxing, reading a book, are all embarrassing responses for me.

What do you do?

Such an important question in our culture. I just had a laugh because when I was asked this question back when I was working, I was so pleased to say, ‘highway engineer’. Ironic, as the other person never seemed impressed or wanted more information. It was a disappointment.

I give this day to God.

Maybe I don’t really know what others will find interest in. I want to feel special. Others want to talk about what relates to themselves. God knows better than me. I have an agenda. God has a better one, MBO!

I give this day to God. _/\_