“But these things don’t count; nor do I hold my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to fully testify to the Good News of the grace of God.” ~ Acts 20:24 World English Bible
Happy Sunday!
Two and a half months ago I asked to understand about resistance.  At that same time I became ill with colitis.  In this moment I am feeling so blessed for the journey and the lessons my experiences have brought to me.
Resistance.  When I saw the author Steven Pressfield interviewed by Oprah on Super Soul Sunday I strongly took away the idea of resistance being a thing, a force in the Universe.  He said on the show that resistance was like a barrier between our souls and our higher selves; I envisioned it hovering above us between the Earth plain and Heaven.
Part of my recent journey has been reading Pressfield’s book “The War of Art” which is all about an artist’s struggles against resistance.  I read the book because I wanted to have an aid in getting motivated to finish writing my first book.  I think now that this was intensifying my focus on resistance.
What you resist persists.
When I began this section of my path I released my resistance to channelling and Law of Attraction (LOA).  As a result of my release I was given a whole new source of wisdom and understanding.  But, because LOA is so much about releasing resistance to let yourself be who you desire to be, it strengthened for me the idea of resistance being a strong force needing effort to break through.
Let the cork rise.
I had weeks of feeling really ill.  In an attempt have LOA aid in my healing I kept my mind on the positive that I was getting better every day.  I stayed positive about what I said about my health but in my mind I got down on myself for not being motivated to clean my house, garden, shop, or write.  I would plan activities for myself but then have to cancel because I couldn’t do it.  I was just not ready.
Was resistance winning?
I see today that I did OK.  I could have become angry at myself and angry at God for things not going as I wanted and planned.  Instead I accepted.  When another day passed that I felt disappointed in me for just spending it on the couch I was able to recognize that I did the best I could that day.  There were a few days that I felt separated from Source and got concerned but I was reminded that gratitude was the tool to get through struggle.  I got myself back to my first thought of the day upon waking up being thanking God for the day ahead instead of “do I have to run to the bathroom?”
Thank you Lord!
I had the most difficult acceptance of the fact that I wasn’t writing.  I had all this time at home that I was basically stuck sitting around.  Why couldn’t I overcome the resistance to writing?  Where had my motivation gone?  Looking back now I recognize that I put a lot of attention on healing, I researched and read many things to try to learn what my body needed to improve.  I can see now that to write meant to release my attention from my body’s needs to let my mind go to that creative place of fantasy where stories live.  I accept that I did the best I could at the time.  As things are better I am going to only feel good about my journey.
I did write yesterday afternoon and it felt so good.  I set a small goal for myself and worked on it for hours.  There was a voice there that said this is too much work but my broader mind enjoyed the fantasy and the puzzle solving of creating pieces that fit into what had happened previously in the story line and what was yet to come.
Happy Sunday!
I felt quite blank just a few short hours ago.  I had doubts of my being inspired to write this day.  Oh that God – he is just too good!  I did my part following through on my Sunday morning rituals.  I watched Joel; again he was the messenger of the gift.
Finishing Grace!
I didn’t quite get what Joel was speaking of as he began his sermon but by the end I felt the Grace.  Well … if that resistance is a strong troublesome force field that I have to break through, it had better just watch out!  I have Finishing Grace on my side.
Where do I find it?
It is right inside of me.  I get it.  I took on the idea of resistance as a thing to battle; God has made me aware that I own another more powerful force to get through resistance and make it to my goal.
I am well.
I am accomplished.
I have all that I require.
“There are miracles in life I must achieve. But first I know it starts inside of me.  If I can see it, then I can be it. If I just believe it, there’s nothing to it.” ~ R. Kelly lyrics ‘I believe I can fly’.